every once in awhile
he comes to mind
he enters a dream
joins a thought

why does he come back
who allowed him in my soul

he’s spoken the word never to me
yet
I still hold on

to nothing

why haven’t I let go

of nothing

there is no maybe
no hope for someday
his life moved on
and left me to wait

for nothing

then I wonder
will I ever be married
will someone not see my past
will they only see my life redeemed

I know I’m brand new
although I’ve been used
I know I’m redeemed
from a dirty past

waiting
for God’s best
becoming
God’s best
enjoying
the thought of being one

some
day

I know he’s out there