“Which God”

A little while ago, I saw a post about writing a song from an unbeliever’s heart. Well, yesterday, while I was driving, God poured one out through me. I didn’t record it, and it had me in tears. I don’t think this is “exactly” it, but it’s pretty darn close.

This song starts in exhaustion, escalates to almost yelling, and ends in a crying whisper. It’s passionate. It’s from a desperate heart that’s been “searching” many places to find God but finally gives up, throws his hands in the air, falls to his knees and cries out for a true answer.

This song is a cry from that heart.

“Which God”
(a song (in the works))

I don’t wanna come to You like this
with my head down in shame
not knowing Your Name
so many speak of Your “truth”
but there’s just so many lies
I’m tired of this

I wanna know
I wanna know who You are
I wanna know
not from any other heart
I wanna know
are You really there
I wanna know
cuz it seems You just don’t care

they tell me Your good
yet there’s murder and shame
they tell me there’s hope
yet I don’t know Your Name
they tell me You’re love
yet there’s sickness and death
they tell me You’re peace
yet my soul’s not at rest

I wanna know
I wanna know who You are
I wanna know
will You set me apart
I wanna know
I wanna hear if from You
I wanna know
straight from Your heart

show me Your life
there’s gotta be more than this
if this is all there is
I don’t want to exist
the world’s gone mad
will hell really be worse
does heaven exist
or am I just cursed

I wanna know
I wanna know who You are
I wanna know
don’t tell me no lies
I wanna know
and not from any church
I wanna know
it’s YOU I search

so tell me Yourself
are You really there
or is my heart poured out
into the air
I’m at the end of my rope
there’s nowhere to hide
I need to know You God
or I’ll leave this world behind

I wanna know
I wanna know You God
I wanna know
I need Your love
I wanna know
is there more than this
I wanna know
or should I even exist

I’m tired of lies
they hold their idols high
am I supposed to believe
in beads You hide
are You in the trees all around
or on the mountain tops
I wanna know
I wanna know

I wanna know
are You even there
I wanna know
do You even love me
I wanna know
I wanna see Your face
I wanna hear Your heart
or I’m leaving this place
behind

(I wanna know)
tell me Your truth
(I wanna know)
I wanna believe in YOU
(I wanna know)
I’m so tired of this
(I wanna know)
do You really exist
out there

I wanna know You God
I wanna know
I wanna know
I wanna
know

 

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