BE what you expect to see!
Month: October 2016
“Connections”
in having friends
you need to BE a friend
back when I was using drugs
a “connection” was my supplier
NOW it’s an invisible cord
woven together through conversations
while getting to know people
face to face
online
through text
and over the phone
there’s a difference between
knowing someone
and being known
and being known
takes conversation
Somewhat of a Mess Every Day
You know what the hardest part about losing Nathan’s presence is? I can’t “see” him every day. Yes, with technology, that’s possible, but he doesn’t have WiFi, and I can’t afford data for him, so even if he took a selfie every day, he wouldn’t be able to send it without data. (Thanks, iPhone!)
I know I’m whining, but my soul hurts, and I’m not sure what to do with that. Since he’s been gone, only a couple people’ve asked how I’m doing, but because I’ve never gone through this, I’m not sure if I’m handling it well or not.
All I know is…
I miss him.
I cry multiple times a day.
I haven’t found a very happy ending.
I feel less than as a mom.
I feel like years have been stolen.
But I don’t want to be so lost in feelings that I miss my time with Carolyn and Katie, so I plan to spend the rest of the day through my spirit.
“Don’t Wake Me”
last night
I dreamt about
Nathan
so while I sleep
he’s still here
“Come Passion”
Jesus knew
a mother’s heart
and even
replaced Himself
before dying
“Retakeology”
I wonder how many times
people retake selfies
until everything’s perfect
hiding everything that’s not
“Possibility”
it doesn’t really matter
what goes on around me
it’s Who lives inside me
that matters
and when I focus on Him
nothing is impossible
“Breath Taking”
there’re certain things
that take my breath away
nature
pictures
attack dogs
missing my son
spiderwebs
laughter
tears
but I always remember
to take it back
A Good Reason Not to Exercise:: Scary Dogs!!
Every once in a while, I go jogging, and today happened to be one of those whiles, and to be honest, it was a HUGE step for me, but after today’s lesson, I’m sure I’ll do it again…sooner rather than later.
This morning, my plan was to jog as far as I could in thirty minutes, but as I approached the end of the second block, my plan changed. Continue reading
Worship Flags and Infinity Scarfs 