every time I think I’ve found me
she’s gone again
and then I’m challenged
to be the me that people see
but what does that look like?
at times, I break down crying
tired of moving forward
but won’t stand still
is that the me they wanna see?
at times, I act as if nothing’s wrong
hiding inside so no one will see
what I’m thinking
what I’m feeling
how I’m doing
is that the me they wanna see?
at times, I think I’m silly
for ever worrying about anything
that the me I’m supposed to be
shouldn’t do that
is that the me they wanna see?
I used to wake up smiling
ready to tackle the day
now, I just stare at nothing
and wonder how I’ll get up
is that the me they wanna see?
when I think about me
I think about God
and how deep inside His heart I am
that’s the me that everyone sees
but she feels
she doubts
she cries
she disconnects
she wonders
she overcomes
she loves
all inside His beautiful heart
where she finds herself
every day