Yesterday, I had my first customer, who was unhappy about her flags. As she was explaining over the phone why she didn’t like them, she said, “What do I do?” I told her to send them back, and I would refund her money. At first, I was fine, but then, I read something about not letting it affect me, and all of a sudden, it affected me.
I was sitting on the couch and almost started crying. Immediately, I jumped up to work on a flag, so I wouldn’t be tempted to give up. As I was pinning the flag, I poked myself and started bleeding. When I went to rinse off my finger, I found myself washing dishes. (Amazing how, when I’m “supposed” to be doing something, all of a sudden, I want to clean. Hmmmmm) Anyway, as I was washing dishes, I started hearing these thoughts.
“You shouldn’t have started this full time.”
“You’re not even making enough money.”
“How are you going to pay rent.”
“See, she didn’t even like them.”
Before you start counseling me, let me tell you that I KNOW these thoughts were not from me but from the enemy. Even in the bible, it says the enemy “waits” for an opportunity. A canceled order was the perfect opportunity for the enemy to put his two-cents worth in, and I almost listened.
Funny, when I was at the mall the other day, Chris was talking about taking thoughts captive. Now, I believe that was God refreshing me, speaking into my armor for-such-a-time-as-this. I thought about what Chris had said and about God’s Truth in His word, and threw away every one of those thoughts and continued making the flag. Now, THAT’s Kingdom living.
Most the time, I overcome quicker than that, but this time, I almost thought the enemy had a point. I mean, it’s the twelfth. Rent is due by the fifth, but then again, that’s a long way away, and I KNOW that what I’m doing is God’s will, and everything will be okay, so yeah, the enemy is a liar. Thinking back, it was almost as if “reading” that the enemy might bring me down opened my mind to hear him, which brought me down. It was weird. …learning.
Lately, I haven’t been putting a name to any darkness that comes my way, but I’m pretty sure this one was “Doubt.” The greatest news is, because I KNOW the truth, Doubt can’t have his way with me and win. Literally, this all happened in the course of ten minutes (at the most). God is so good! He teaches us how to live in freedom. We just need to practice living in it. It feels much better to be confident than it does to be doubting, so that’s where I’ll continue to make my flags from.
I’m dying more today, so keep an eye out for new creations. Most of them are already sold, but you’ll be able to get an idea of what they could look like, if you ever want to order some.
Worship Flags and Infinity Scarfs 