only caring
how I knew how
only loving
how I knew how

never loving myself
yet getting married
having kids
getting divorced
not knowing Love

so much damage
in between
so much heartache
caused

stripping
prostitution
drugs
alcohol

having finally encountered
a need for my kids
to have God
feeling too late for me
but I was wrong

getting God for myself
learning about Love
dying for Him
dying to self
living through Him
I found Love

now
starting over again
but through Love

loving myself
loving my ex
and excited to see
this brand new life
being lived